An abundance of interest

My interest in literature lately has been monumentally high. In this case, I have only to blame John Green’s Looking For Alaska for keeping me so intertwined in its riveting story and cerebral plot. I highly, highly recommend this book to anyone; even though it’s a proclaimed young adult novel, anyone can get into it. I suppose the only disadvantage, however, is being twenty-some-odd years old and reading about such jouvenile high-school-esque activities. Though, really, it’s freaking fantastic, so I went ahead and ordered An Abundance of Katherines from Amazon (his other book).

I’m also nearing the end of the school year (yaaaay), which means more end of the year projects that have to be turned in to get final grades up to a respectable GPA. I’m fucking bored, though, and want to just finish this bullshit. I have a couple projects, one involving a ridiculously atrocious organization method and another dealing with Romeo & Juliet.

I’m gonna go read, I forgot how annoying it is to remember school.

So what’s going on now?

I wish I had a clue, but right now everything seems like a big tornado. I have no idea what I want to do with myself. I want to go out some place. Do something — change, surprise some people.

What’s going on?

I also crave the ability to truly, truly know how to assemble myself.

In conclusion…

The game I was playing previously sucks. Big time.

I am, however, steadily playing Grand Theft Auto IV, and enjoying myself so profoundly. Now, I’m not in any hurrying — utmost enjoyment is my primary goal. I’m not even writing any notes! I simply expect all my feelings to come when the time comes to write. It’s really spectacular… I can already say it’s so recommendable and you should head out to buy it!

Progress: nearly 40%

Sexy students! Need help writing essays?

I just love Dinosaur Comics and Ryan North.

A new and exciting world!

I’m gonna try somethin’ interesting here!

So I was browsing the Internet, mindind my own business where a fairly humble ad managed to catch my eye. It was a MMORPG offering a free membership to play their new and exciting game! All anime-clad, bright eyed and korean-looking, I took the ‘bait.’ I looked around their website and noticed it wasn’t a 3D MMORPG, which was a big relief, so I was more interested than before. I saw a couple of screenshots, it looked pretty nice. It didn’t try to be a large-yet-empty world (I hope), it just looked small and made good with it. For the most part, it looks similar to Pirate King Online; not a necessarily bad game, but it did ware out its interest relatively quick for me and the few buddies I played with.

Quickly noting: I am playing for the sake of a review once complete (or until I get sick of it. but seriously, if that happens, is there really much more you need?). In an interesting turn of events, I have no idea what this game is about, the classes, the ideas, the worlds, the combat, NOTHING. I’m coming in absolutely blinded with no expectations of greatness, but I’m not expecting anything awful of it. It’s still in Beta, so I can’t judge too harshly — however, it’s an free MMORPG. These things usually remain in Beta for years, or never release, period. The only expectation I hold is, not that it has everything and does it well, but that it has what it was, and does that well.

It’s called Secret of Solstice, by the way.

Ultimate stress

It’s inconcievable. Under so much stress right now. I can’t focus, I have so much to do and so much of what is to be done is going wrong.

I realized that I need to start making better decisions. Some things are more important than other things.

I’m downright furious.

Poetry

Poetry can be something beautiful, poetry can be something ugly. It’s a literary art that redefines the mentality: “beauty is in the eyes of the behold.” I’ve read a lot of good poetry, and quite frankly, a lot more bad poetry. But even now, I still can’t find myself to truly understand what poetry is — or even if I ever may. But now, I think I’ll ramble on about what poetry is exactly.

I know it’s an expressive tool — that much is obvious. But I can’t understand how. To me, I can easily gather up my emotions and craft a paragraph on how I feel (making it as artsy as I wish). But others usually find it more relieving to write works of poetry infused with amateur symbolism and cryptic dialog that makes no real sense to anyone but themselves (these are fine examples to the quote I stated above).

Then I see the poetry that is more often speculated, and praised by thousands upon thousands of people. Not anyone in particular, but to name two of my favorites, I’m thinking of: Walt Whitman, Robert Frost. I read, and evaluate their work, and notice that it’s not really much ever expressing their feelings. It IS expressive, but hardly (I know Poe spoke very much of his emotions, but that wasn’t all) ever about purely themselves.

So that brings me to my dilemma of not understanding truly what poetry is. It’s used by many as a means to cope with what’s wrong or what’s right in their lives, or used to make wonderful tales to relate with humans and emotions. After thinking about it all, only one possible answer truly remains: poetry is a map to emotion. Might I try and explain myself…

One of the most confusing and unexplainable phenomenons that has ever graced the human race is…well, love. Love is perhaps the strongest reason to write poetry, and the only possible form to map out how it works for means desiring a proper explanation. In basic words, no matter how articulate, love is unexplainable; but in poetry, moments, emotions, and desires are placed into a cryptic plane to better understand. So I guess, poetry is used to better explain things without looking like a pompous douche…is that right?

Okay, rambling ends now!

My experiences with Iron Man

So there I was, on Xbox looking through my friends list and noticed that someone was playing the Iron Man demo. I was naturally curious, of course, having seen the trailers and laughed at something so silly. I’m not really a fan of Iron Man, nor am I the biggest Marvel fan — but I do know that when games get more media hype than player hype… it’s a recipe for destruction.

Well, I played the demo. I was right.

The major gamebreaker here is the undeniable obscurity presented all throughout. I started up the game and begun to play, and everything seemed fine. Little did I know, the air of obscurity was beginning to rear its ugly head. I was presented with some kind of upgrade system thing, all specializing in the different body areas (torso, legs, hands) that you could add to Iron Man; but seriously, this was all near utter uselessness, especially in a demo where the general public wouldn’t know which would be better, and which would be worse. Personally, I just didn’t bother dealing with that and skipped to the gameplay, but oh… it just kept coming.

The control scheme was really confusing and didn’t feel intuitive at all. At first, it didn’t seem all that bad, since I dropped down and started running to see how those mechanics worked out. I then, though, initiated flight and it felt so unintuitive that I had to waste my time adjusting to the flight controls. It was a system that used the left analog stick to direct your flight, which was fine, and you would expect then the right analog stick would be used to either a) direct your camera or b) direct your crosshair. Well, yeah, that would be the smart thing to do, but it wasn’t done; instead, you get an awkward camera push to the area you’re moving the analog stick to.

Other than those problems, the controls for combat were, if i may be so blunt, shitty. I’m sure there would be been more options, none of which I took advantage of because of the deplorable and overcomplicated control placement. So I switched that off to just move my crosshair near the target, semi-lock on, and shoot. That was it.

The graphics fell victim to a problem all but many games that incorporate flying have: it looks pretty nice while flying from afar, but when you get right up to it, it looks so bad. I understand that most games that are solely flying wouldn’t bother to apply detail and proportion to small buildings. But in this case, you will often find yourself getting on flat ground to ease the troublesome ’shooting-while-flying’ mechanism. So, what we have here is a studio that’s being forced to reach a deadline who can’t bother to tweak those little part of a game that make it shine. Sad.

It’s a shame. I see so much potential in this series (Iron Man, I meant… no sequels, please!)  to create fantastic games that will utilize what can make this fun, and allow it to be fun and not suck a big floppy black one. It’s with a heavy heart that I say this game is just going to be another crappy game added to the pile of crappy games based on movies.

I’m sorry, WordPress!

I’m gonna have to issue a firm apology for my lovely, not-so-old friend, WordPress. It seems that not too long ago, I switched over to BlogSpot for more hassle-free blogging. After a while, though, I realized it was just kind of boring to post on BlogSpot, and the environment was so uninviting (unless you were an idiot or an american politics fanatic). So here I am, back on WordPress where I belong!

One also notable feature is the clear destruction of my old url — naitsu, to my more (for now) universal handlebar, blaqa. So, that’s what’s been going on with that lately.

As for writing, it’s been a bit slow and I haven’t been able to put much on Ani-Gamers. I really wish I could, though, but it’s just become a pain to juggle because of all the annoyances of real-life obligations. I’m trying as hard as I can (honestly, I am!) to break away from these obligations, but for now I have to live and serve them.

I’m also — among the several summer activities that I’ll be participating in — going to give Venezuela a visit. This is nice, considering I haven’t been there in nearly two full years and I’ve lost most contact with a good portion of my family, aside from a select few. I’m excited, but I’m also a bit worried that I’ll fall into my usual “I want to get out of here” state of mind — which is why I’ve set it up so that I’ll only be there a nimble two weeks, no more no less… or maybe a bit less, I’m not entirely sure.

I’ll even [probably] start to do some playwriting and short stories, but that’s just some mental candy for me to chew on, there’s no guarantee I’ll actually be doing any of that. But since I’ll have alot of free time at night, I think I’ll spend most of it reading Dostoevsky, and then being inspired to write.

So, expect stuff, I think… I’m kind of a loose canon and I can’t be controlled.

Things are looking up

Right now I’m pretty excited about how things are going…not that they’re going necessarily in great direction overall, but I’m excited for what I’ll be doing with my life for the next while. First of all, as I’ve said before: I applied for a volunteering position on AniGamers and I’ve been accepted, so I’ll probably start doin’ that whenever (probably soon).

Aside from that, I finished doing Among Our Refuge’s myspace layout, so now Death By The Masses wants one too, which is great to see that people dig my stuff as much as I do — so now I’m expecting more bands to come along and ask for their pages done.

And finally, I’ll be starting to play Professor Layton (DS), and I’ll probably have a review on that at my new position in AniGamers… maybe.

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